Saturday, December 29, 2007

That Time Again

Hey All,

It's that time again. Hard to believe that it's almost the New Year. This year has gone by very quickly and yes, there has been heartache and yes there have been disappointments. However, the optimist in me cannot help but remember the triumphs and the new found knowledge that I am indeed stronger and smarter than I ever gave my self credit. If you are reading this then you have made it to the new year and you know what? You, are more resilient than you think.

Oh, it's going to be another year of craziness but unlike past years, I am looking forward to it. Why? I have now weeded out the hypocrites and have a small but resourceful circle of friends who stand at the very core of all my survival stories for this year.

Let's not get it wrong. I'm no Polly Anna. I know there will still be crazy people on the road, rumour starters, negative people, haters, taxes, that one bitch with no cellulite, and some guy that will try to break your heart and probably succeed. I know it will all be there when I go home January 1st, yes it's going to be "Same shit, Different Year." But my story in 2008 is going to be "Same shit, Different Me"

Nuff Luv in the New Year,

Mamachel

Monday, December 17, 2007

Save that Date

Hey,

How does one date?!! No seriously, what the fuck is this? I'm not from a culture that dates, here in sunny ol' Kingston you kinda have a social circle and you can always find out about the other person so you usually know if you have a sure bet or not. But recently I have been trying this dating thing and trust me, it's a little more difficult than I thought. Here,you go out with a guy for awhile and then you get close and people associate you with each other and slowly but surely (usually after the sex) both parties will conclude if they are compatible or not...That said

It's a dangerous thing when you try to get to know a person. You become cognisant of many things that a whirl wind romance would have left you blind to. So,what does one do with all this information? I can tell you what a female does, she over analyses and goes off on the weirdest tangents ever. We can't help it, we just cant. Is he really going to that meeting or does he think we need space? I met some of his friends does this mean he's into me or what? To me dating is circuitous bullshit that never answers any questions. And frig all that self esteem crap, dating will reduce the most self-confident woman to a self-doubting, manic teenager.

I will admit though that the girl in me loves the special treatments that come with dating. The thrill of being chased and knowing that someone likes you can be addictive, but face it you can get that feeling at any happy hour on a Friday night. And answer this, "How awkward is it when you finally realize that you don't like a guy". Girls you know what I'm talking about... that one guy who you know you'll never sleep with but still takes his calls because he is always there for you.

I know I have no answers but today all I have are questions. I'm still on the fence about this dating thing and because of that I will have to tell some guys to save that date. I will keep you posted.

One Luv,

Mamachel